Don't be too shocked but once again, a relationship didn't work. He was so much of what I wanted in regards to how he always seem to choose what was right as it pertained to the Gospel. I really loved that. But he was young. He didn't like me for me. He didn't have the life experience to be able to appreciate things about me. I want someone who understands what it means to go through hard times and come out still choosing the Lord. I also want someone who has lived life who isn't so close minded. But even though my head is clear on the fact that I didn't want to be with him long term, it was still hard to be done.
It is so hard having to start over, with absolutely no prospects. The other part that was hard was that the first month I lived in San Diego I was basically in the honeymoon stage and now it's harder. I feel lost and lonely. But I know I would have felt a bit of these feelings if I was still living in Salt Lake. It is hard having a breakup. I just want to find someone who fits me.
Today when I was teaching Gospel Doctrine I realized that I am still here, here being still single, because I still need to help bring closer to Christ through my talents and by being me. Grateful that I felt that.
I still feel that I am where I am supposed to be. Eventually San Diego will feel more like home.
